“Even though i have this pain, i deeply and completely love & accept myself. I profoundly and unconditionally love and accept my body, and i thank my body for holding my pain. I thank my pain for keeping me sane and whole. But I now choose to acknowledge my pain & my emotions, I embrace my pain & my emotions even though they are hard for me.
I may have made some poor choices in the past about how to handle my pain and define who I am but those were the best choices i could have made at that time and I choose to honour that. I now choose to make some different choices so that my outcomes can be different.
I now choose to know that I have the sole responsibility and accountability for my life. I now choose to take sovereignty over my life and my body.
I choose freedom, confidence, wisdom, humility, compassion. I choose to be strong, I choose to be powerful, I choose to be loved and love.
Even though I have some pain, but I have the fear that this pain is going to increase……
Now there is no pain, now I have the anxiety, the fear that the pain might return, that the pain will come back with a vengeance i deeply & completely……..
Now there is no pain, and no anxiety, now I’m anxious about not having pain and anxiety, it’s not safe, I’m scared they will come back with a vengeance. I deeply ….. .
I now choose to be calm and confident. I now choose to be happy and pain free….”
Anna is a musician with stage fright. Even thinking about being on stage gave her palpitations and made her hands ache. The triggers for this phobia were critical parent and unkind teacher characters who made her feel small. Her grandfather was her biggest fan, her first music teacher and the love in her life when she was growing up. This is the homework that helped her through some major performances.
“Even though I feel like I’m standing here on stage feeling all alone, all exposed with a feeling of doom, I choose to feel strong, I choose to feel safe. I choose to feel calm and confident. I choose to experience my grandfather’s (the love in your life) love, encouragement and support. Even though my hands are starting to hurt, my veins are popping up, I choose to acknowledge my grandfather in my veins, my grandfather in my heart, my grandfather in my hands, in my music…. I choose to play for me and my grandfather. Everybody else here is just incidental.
I am standing on stage feeling powerful, full of music and magic, and the music just smoothly flows out of my heart, fills my hands, fills my instrument, fills the audience, I allow the music to vibrate in every cell of my body, the space between my cells, the space outside of my body, to fill the space in the concert hall. I choose to allow this music to flow beautifully, effortless into the world. I fill the entire universe with this music. Exhilarating…. Awesome…. Powerful…. Centered.”